Friday, January 29, 2010
Thursday, January 28, 2010
When the creator exists
When you are about to be filled with anger towards someone, ask a question instead.
Why are the clouds pink?
You know whoever we become, what ever we do, how ever we do, where ever we go, what ever inspiration, what ever the day! WE WILL ALWAYS WONDER WHAT OTHER PEOPLE ARE THINKING OF US! we will stop sometime in a day, and ponder what other people are seeing as they look at you. that's when you get self conscience. I'm saying it's normal, i'm saying you cant be completely confident with yourself. I'm plainly saying THINK ABOUT IT! don't feel like you are shrinking into a "pea", always come out of it stronger! that's what i'm saying, COME OUT OF IT STRONGER!
I cut all my hair off, because i need to stop thinking so much of what everybody is thinking and more about who i am. We all do. We can sit in a coffee shop and wonder what "category" you fall in to when somebody looks at you. Or we can think about what we are going to do after we leave the place, to make that day, THAT much better. We can think about our actions, and our words towards people rather what they are seeing. Because if you are as happy and interactive with someone's thoughts, then it surpasses what you looked like in the first place. FOCUS PEOPLE ON YOUR KINDNESS AND HUMBLE THOUGHTS. LOVE YOUR BODY AND LOVE YOURSELF!
I don't like having bad breath after coffee. You know a thought just came to me… We should act as if awe would by our selves. Don't hold back because people have thoughts of you. if they can 'hate' then you wouldn't be friends with them anyways. they are negative, and not worthy, they need to change. taste like baby poo… :/
i would make a youtube video, but is it worth the negative AND the positive comments?
Ipad is stupid, but inventive that's for sure!
Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Earthquakes and Havic
So apparently there is supposed to be an earthquake at the olimpics. It could be a class 9! all i'm saying is that it could be, let alone a class 7, 5, or 3 ITS STILL BAD! hmm…
What'd yeah say to a threesome EH?
The second i get home, I will be purchasing Froot loops. I'm salivating. This is unfortunate that i have to wait… maybe i'll get some tomorrow… who knows? but hell NOTHING CAN MAKE UP FOR FROOT LOOPS OTHER THEN THE ORIGINAL!
uuuurrrrgggggghh!
May we say words that are meaningful, and smile when we are happy.
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
Tomorrow is a new day...
I may go to Victoria tomorrow, make a hair appt. and go to american apparel to get that thing i wanted! It will definitely be an adventure, going on the ferry then figuring out bus routes and such, all with a time span.
My mom is sad that i'm leaving i can tell in her tone of voice, it breaks my heart. i'm going to miss her!
There's a time ana place for that
Sandwiches for dinner, sandwiches for breakfast, SANDWICHES FOR LIFE! but damn are they good!
the cat scratched my pinky finger and it's been feeling all swollen and red for the past two days… i wonder what's up with it?
WEARING SHORTS!
I had a shower with the sun beaming on my face :) made me smile…. I WANT A TAN!
genesha will guide me.
Living with my yetunde (my sister) now. :D
JOB JOB JOB JOB JOB HUNNNNNT! :s
SWIMMING IS MY DREAM AT THE MOMENT!
drawing is in the past, i need to explore my athletic side now. HELLO BASKETBALL GOODBYE PAINT!
I will be home on Monday. DITTCCCH!
Monday, January 25, 2010
BLIND PEOPLE
Why would you say that father? i felt i was asking too much, when i did. I also thought that you would consider that your daughter, would actually like to live with you. DO I HAVE TO PAY YOU FOR YOUR HAPPINESS TOWARDS ME!? DO I HAVE TO GIVE YOU SOMETHING IN RETURN FOR LOVE!? I AM SORRY IF I DO NOT MAKE YOU HAPPY! BECAUSE YOU DON'T MAKE ME HAPPY EITHER!
Unconditional Love
Someone once asked me if i hated one of my parents, or just couldn't stand one of them. I replied with that i loved my parents, and even all the bullshit they say, i love too many things about them to hate them completely. But i can safely say that my dad is emotionally incompatible, and as much as i want to help him, and make him happier; he is too insanely angry about life and everything it withholds. Dad, i wish i could help you, but you died before you even got a chance.
I will live with you for a while, but the second i get a chance to move out, i will. I will never have anything to do with you, except to socialize with. Because i have learn't not to trust you, and to not believe in you.
I hate to say such harsh words, but it's how i feel, can't hide from that.
Bank account balances depress us no matter what
I realized that mothers give their lives to their children. Until i know what it feels like to have a child, i guess i will never understand. When you make all your pictures on the internet of your children, that's when you know they have given everything to these youth. WHERE HAVE "YOU" GONE AS A PERSON?! You may of had a child at 20, or 16, or 40, BUT YOU SHOULD NEVER END YOUR LIFE FOR THEM! Maybe i don't understand what a mother daughter/son relationship withholds. But there are some mothers who are so proud of their children, that their blogs are all about them, the profile pictures are them; frankly i want to commend you on your love for them, but i want to see you, and when your children grow up and get a blog, we will hear about them.
it is raining.
We hiked up Mt.Maxwell with my sister Katie, and my mom yesterday. In the rain.
i am going to cut my hair off. and get my nose pierced this week. Big week of 'letting go' i'd say.
I will be back to Edmonton in a week. Am i excited "no. Am i happy, "i'm not sure".
I think i have truly excepted myself and my body, at least i am starting to. And i love myself.
